Other People

Wednesdays P&L: GBP680.00.

Wednesdays booze: 6 liters of Stella Artois, 3 large brandies.

Today I am thinking about people I have known and the past. I try and avoid thinking of my past as a rule but I have recently been in touch with a few people, (by e-mail), who knew me some time ago.

One of them was a girl who lived in the same small town I did when I was a child. She is a few years older than me and even back then was a sexy girl - and definitely knew it. Her life has changed so much she went far away. We lived in a town that if you had any real ambition you moved away. She has had some bad luck in her life and recently had some bad news. I felt so bad for her, even though it is over 27 years since the last time I saw her, I remember her fondly. I hope she gets the happiness she deserves.

The other friend was more a guitarist who used to play in a band with me at school. He was a very cool guy, but like everything it has its season and he went to live in another part of the country shortly after I went to live in Asia. He has also had some misfortune but in my opinion he wasn't cut out for the conventional life he finds himself in.

All this time and after so much has happened to hear from people like this is kind of a jolt for me. My style is to move on and ignore the past. It makes me wonder how many people walk around carrying their past in their heads and hearts. It also makes me realise how dispassionate I am. Most people who meet me think I am the kind of guy who attacks life and tries to do the most I can, but upon reflection, it is quite clear that I cut myself off from almost everything.